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loosing weight when broke

Ever tried loosing weight? Well, I need not tell you how exasperating it is to have to battle with your mind everyday and time. What to eat and what not eat and the unending conversations with yourself about why you need to work out and convincing yourself to workout.

Every day there are countless articles on the web on how to lose weight: Eat This, Not That!, Do This, Not That!, Drink This, Not That!. On Yahoo alone, there are at least two articles on how to lose weight on a daily basis and they are so lucky to have found a devout reader in me. I am constantly clicking away on any article that has the words “weight” and “loss” in the same sentence as heading.

Of all the articles on weight loss I have read, I don’t remember reading any that was particularly suited to someone who wanted to lose weight on a low-budget, or someone who wanted to lose weight but was plain broke.

You see, I was certain this time this year I would have been at least 30 pounds down (I tend to have an overinflated sense of my self motivation sometimes, I know, it’s pathetic), and for a reason. With the many articles I have read and keep reading on loosing weight,I believed I knew all that there was/is to it until my bank account told me “slow down lady before you go homeless”.

When I decided in January I was going to lose weight, I was living at the time with family. So the beginning was easy. I could buy the things that I had read aided in weight loss and “eat right”. It was easy and true to some of those articles it worked. By Mid-February, I had lost 10 pounds. Stepping on the scale and looking down to see that I was 10 pounds lighter was very exhilarating.

Between February and April, I managed to lose another 10. What? I had lost 20 pounds? Impossible! Me of all people, had somehow managed to shed 20 pounds of the mass I was hurling around. Excited is an understatement to how I felt that I did that. I was happy but mostly proud of myself. I rewarded my hard work with a beautiful dress and decided I would use that as my new motivation. What I did not know was that my plans of moving and having my own place would throw a wrench in my weight-loss journey.

In May, I did what I thought was the adult thing to do, have my own place and move from my family. It is very fulfilling to have a place called my own. Living with family was great and I still sleep over there every so often, but there is a certain level of liberty that comes with having a place that is “all your own”.(sure you catch my drift, first time apartment owner).

Anyways, I had no idea about what the effects of me having my place would have on my weight-loss goal. I was completely oblivious to the bills I would have to shoulder at my new place. I am barely ever done paying one month’s bill before the next month’s starts accumulating. I find that I am constantly playing catch-up with my bills and so hardly have any money left over.

The little money I end up having over, wrestles between gas, saving for emergencies and food.And that is how I found out the hard way that, eating ‘green” is expensive and healthy isn’t cheap. I go grocery shopping and stay there for hours not because I don’t know what I want, but because I am trying to reconcile the ongoing war in me about what to buy; scouting for what is cheap yet healthy.

Let just say, my weight-loss journey has suffered some setbacks since I moved into my new place. Now if I had read any articles on how to lose weight on a broke/limited budget, I am sure I would have been down the 30 pounds I had hoped, because I would have known what to buy on my budget that would still allow me lose weight.

I am nanny, and while I am “well” paid (a little over minimum wage), I still find it hard to keep up. A few weeks ago, I had to give up buying “healthy” altogether because my wallet couldn’t handle it. I would love to keep loosing weight and buying whatever it is that will get me there, but more than anything I want to keep that roof over my head with all that I consider a necessity under it like electricity and gas and so on.

So while I find other avenues that my budget can handle to keep loosing, I will stay conscious about what I put in my mouth and working out ( both my school and work schedule make it so hard sometimes to get it in).

Do you have any suggestions for me? I would appreciate any tip from you all, anyone loosing on a tight budget. Meanwhile, hope your today is better than yesterday . Do share. How are you feeling today?

Update On The Journey

Good evening my lovely and wonderful WordPress family.

Wow.

It feels like I have been away for a long time when it has actually been just a week. Well, school started on Monday and the drill started all over again with full throttle. My days are so so crazy and Tuesdays would be my worst this semester.

My Tuesday this week started at 4 AM. I had to wake up that early because I wanted to get my work out in before starting the day. So I woke up at 4 am, worked out, put a few things together, went to school and by 1:30 PM I was going to work. I almost didn’t have time for lunch and I only got off work at 7 PM. As exhausted as I was, I am not sure what else I was doing but I didn’t go to sleep until 11 PM. Crazy day and that is how my Tuesdays are going to be because I have an early class, – a lab which starts at 7 AM.

By the end of Tuesday, I was telling myself, if every day were like Tuesday, I would lose this weight whether I liked it or not because it was pretty exhausting. I had to remind myself to eat and to drink water and make good choices.

Pondering on Tuesday and the week so far left me thankful for the little victories already. Coming off the weekend into the new week, I messed up a little.My mistake was having Chinese food and a small Dairy Queen Blizzard. Usually, I would have had the fried rice and lo mein with orange chicken, and a medium or large blizzard but instead, I had the lo mein with steamed veggies and bourbon chicken.Also, I went for the small blizzard instead of the medium or large. I was disappointed by the time I was going to bed Sunday but I tried to not beat myself too much about it because after all, like in the past, it could be worse.

So Monday was a good day and last week I downloaded the ‘My Fitness’ app so I can keep track of what goes in my mouth. I had it before a while ago and deleted it because I didn’t pay much attention to it or when I did put in my meals for the day, I left out the ‘bad choices’. This time, I record every thing so that it keeps me accountable for the times that I mess up.

I was particularly proud of myself yesterday when for whatever reason, my alarm didn’t go off and I woke up a little late and felt that I didn’t have enough time to squeeze exercise in. I was already making all kinds of excuses in my head and I realized the ‘two voices’ battle that was going on in my head.

One was telling me if I got up at that time to do the work out, I would be running late for school and to every thing all day and the other was telling me to remember how I feel after exercise and that I still had enough time. I didn’t even know what voice won until I found myself all dressed and doing the INSANITY for yesterday. I was very happy with myself because not only did I do the exercise, I wasn’t late and I proved my other self that I could do it after all.

All week till now has been great. I find that I am more conscious with my choices and I have not given up on the workouts yet.I like to do the workouts in the morning because I find that I am more energetic in the morning and the workout somehow always leaves me with a positive outlook for the rest of the day.Also, probability that I exercise in the evening is always slim to none as I always find myself entangled in one million projects.

I am happy with the tiny results so far. I got on the scale yesterday and so far, I have lost 3.5 lbs. Like I said in a previous post, my mid-section feels firmer and I feel it going inside. It is still there when I look in the mirror but I can already see the difference and every time I eat a salad, it is a victory for me. Between school, work, other things in between and maintaining a blog, things can get overwhelming pretty quickly and that is why I take time to enjoy the little victories because it keeps me motivated to stay on the course and expect the bigger results.

Today was another good day even though it didn’t begin with workout as usual. My alarm is misbehaving lately. Somehow, it didn’t ring this morning either and I woke up so late. I was going to exercise this evening but was caught up with a lot of work. I almost gave up on it when I found myself on my room floor doing multiple reps of push-ups, squats, leg raises, and abs. I am not sure how long I did it for but breaking a sweat is always a refreshing feeling. I am actually feeling sore.

Anyways, Sorry for the long write-up tonight and I hope you have stayed on course too, whatever your journey is. It is not easy. It never is but one step at a time, gradually, we can do it. Well, I wish you all a lovely weekend ahead and hope I can find time for at least one more post before the start of the new week.

Thank you to all those who stop by here, I so appreciate your visits and for the comments, thank you for taking the time to encourage me with your words because I take them seriously. Have a wonderful night   morning.

Would sure love to hear your stories too, any updates? How is your journey going so far? Whatever your journey is. Please share how you are feeling today.

Tapping All of My Will Power Resources for the weekend.

Every time in the past when I tried to lose weight, I noticed I usually did well during weekdays and messed it all up on weekends. Part of the reason is because most times, I always allowed my weekends to be cheat days and would never recover from that, or me just plainly thinking, ‘oh well, I will exercise away the lbs gained over the weekend’ and that just never happened either.

I just started out on this one I know the sure-fire way to mess it all up would be to use one of the approaches of the past, because I am facing it, if it did work then I wouldn’t still be here trying to lose right?

So going to bed last night I have dreaded waking up today because I fear messing it all. Already, weekends are the times when I catch up on my sleep. So it is 9 am now and I have not exercised yet but I hope to before stepping out. I haven’t drank any water yet and weekends are usually my days of low water intake. I will be watching that closely.

My main focus though today would be portion control because that has always been my biggest failure over the weekend. For whatever reason, a part of me thinks that I can eat as much as I want because after all, I am going to burn it all away. Not true. So I will be paying close attention to that.

Also, my sweet tooth seem to be on the loose on weekends when I crave all the wrong things from ice cream, to cakes, to chocolate. My approach today, stay away from any place or any thing that tempts me towards that.

Another is over snacking. I snack a lot on weekends, so solution to that is ‘stick to your main meals of the day Victoire’. These are the small fixes I hope help me along the way today. I need all of my will power to work in my favor this weekend.

I don’t want to go around being afraid of a slip up either because it is only going to make this journey difficult and make me paranoid, which I do not want. Keeping my little fixes in mind, I hope they get me by through this weekend.

How are you feeling today?…Have a blessed and marvelous weekend ahead.

 

 

 

Day 2

I am in the second day of my body reformation. I woke up all swollen and my body felt like I was beaten up in my sleep. I didn’t think I had the strength for a workout this morning and I realized that I am in so much pain from the workout of yesterday. If I didn’t workout to nurture the pain, I was going to make it worst resuming.

The freezing cold this morning didn’t help either but I got the courage to get out of bed and got dressed. I did another INSANITY workout and before I could finish the workout this morning, I felt like I was going to pass out.

I think I started too strong because minutes after the workout I was very nauseated and weak. I didn’t let that get into my head because that is how I have been discouraged in the past. I just made a mental note that this is all very new to my body but if I keep to it, my body will get used to it and I will pretty much be able to work through all the videos non stop.

I drink a lot of water when I work out, so I have already had my three bottles this morning and a blueberry smoothie. I hope today is better than yesterday such that I have more vegetables in my meals.

I think I had a good day yesterday because I had quinoa salad with baked fish for lunch. I have never tried quinoa and I never thought I will ever eat it but I did and I was pleasantly suprised. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be. I had the Chick-Fil-A grilled chicken sandwich for dinner and it wasn’t bad either. I snacked on a serving of popcorn with green tea and called it a day. It was a success.

I am proud of myself this morning realizing that I am still on the course for my weight loss journey considering the sad news I got yesterday about my uncle. In the past, that was enough to sway me in the complete opposite direction of my goals. I was tempted a few times especially because I am such an emotional eater. But it was different yesterday. Each time I was tempted, I would hear a voice whispering ‘Victoire don’t do it’  and I walked away.

I miss my uncle and I am sad but I realize that I can mourn him without necessarily turning to food. I pray my will power gets stronger with each day and I am able to resist all such food temptations and stay on this course.

How did you wake up today? How do you feel today? Let’s be support systems for each other, please share your day with me.

peace & love.

The Depressing Effect of My Scale

It is day 2 into the new year and like every body, I am back in full swing with my work out and decision to lose weight. That means for me to know how much I want to lose, I need to know how much I weigh first.

I got on the scale before my workout and found out that I am at the heaviest weight I have ever been in my entire life, and that feeling sucked. I was aware that after not working out in such a long time, I had definitely gained all the 10 lbs I had managed to lose in a month and a half, but what I didn’t expect was that I would gain it all back and then some.

Immediately I saw that, panic set in and I started wondering how I will get past the first 10 lbs, then to the 60 and then my goal, the 100. I was overcome by all kinds of emotions. I fell to the floor and cried without tears. I asked myself how I got here again, past what my heaviest was in the past to this new record. I felt pity for myself, sorrow, shame and disappointment.

I have let myself down terribly. I thought to myself there is no way I will ever lose this weight. Where do I begin, how do I continue and will I ever get there?. I was almost giving up and then I told myself, it has been almost 2 and half months since I worked out consistently. I didn’t gain it all back overnight, so I would not lose it overnight.

I got up from that floor and went to the mirror. I lifted my shirt and looked at myself for good five minutes. My stomach is the biggest it has ever been and usually, people always complimented me for not having a big belly despite being big. But I looked and my belly wasn’t only big, it was beginning to fall.

So I grabbed my phone and took a couple of pictures. I got dressed and I started my INSANITY workout videos I have had for almost four months now. It was hard but I pushed myself and I finished the first one. I found myself already obsessing over the next few days and I had to tell myself to calm down.

I will take it one day at a time, one goal at a time and hopefully, it gets me to where I want to be By June at least. I just then decided to set small achievable goals first and then move from there. I will try to work out at least once a day following my INSANITY workout. Go for walks at least twice a week and try to lose at least 2 lbs a week. And to lose at least 10 lbs by end of this month.

I hope it is enough to keep me motivated and I hope I meet these tiny goals so I can progress to the next. My breakfast this morning  was a Kefir blueberry smoothie and I have already drank 3 bottles of water. I pray my head stays up and I keep the big picture in mind to motivate me to make better meal choices today.

My head stayed up today and though my meal choices weren’t great, they were better. For lunch, I had a chicken salad sandwich on wheat bread and I had wheat falafel with humus and some veggies for dinner. I drank a lot of water throughout the day and I had 2 apples for snacks. I just had a cup of green tea and I hope and pray tomorrow is better.

I woke up feeling depressed this morning after climbing on the scale and now, I am upbeat and motivated. I was positive all day till I got bad news but I am thankful it did not deter me. I hope it stay that way. How do you feel today? Any new year resolutions? Goodnight folks

Happy New Year